I have been living with a secret for my entire life and somehow, in the process of trying to create the life that I have always wanted, I missed the very important fact that I have always been a girl in a boy's body.
Everything that I have done through my life, growing up in a fairly stable and loving family, going to college, starting a career or careers, finding a mate and starting a family of my own, have all been about trying to discover who I am.
I have asked myself why it took sixty two years of struggle to come to this realization? How has this shadow been so deeply buried in my psyche that I couldn't raise it to the full light of day until now?
The truth is that I will probably never fully resolve this question. If I seek a psychiatric or psychological avenue to answer this and other important questions about why I have suddenly "come out" to be the woman I've always been, will it change the fact that I am now living as Deanna instead of David?
At the end of the day, it doesn't really matter how or why, it only matters that I have taken the life that has been given to me, which up to this point has been hell on earth, and transforming it into the life of a beautiful, intelligent and confident woman who now lives her days, not in hell on earth, but in heaven on earth.
If you want to see where the new road I have chosen will take me, I invite you to join me on my new blog Observations from Crossing Over to the Other Side of the Fence.
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As for this blog, Awakening to Aliveness, its been fun and it's time to say goodbye.
Deanna Joy Hallmark Once Known As David Lee Hallmark
