I have been living with a secret for my entire life and somehow, in the process of trying to create the life that I have always wanted, I missed the very important fact that I have always wanted to be a girl.
Everything that I have done through my life, growing up in a fairly stable and loving family, going to college, starting a career or careers, finding a mate and starting a family of my own, have all been about trying to discover who I am.
I have asked myself why it took sixty two years of struggle to come to this realization? How has this shadow been so deeply buried in my psyche that I couldn't raise it to the full light of day until now?
The truth is that I will probably never fully resolve this question. If I seek a psychiatric or psychological avenue to answer this and other important questions about why I have suddenly "come out" to be the woman I've always wanted to be, will it change the fact that I have now become Deanna instead of David?
At the end of the day, it doesn't really matter how or why, it only matters that I have taken the ball that has been handed me, the ball of becoming the beautiful and confident woman of my dreams, and running with it.
If you want to see where it will take me, I invite you to join me on my new blog I am Deanna.
As for this blog, Awakening to Aliveness, its been fun and it's time to say goodbye.
Deanna Joy Hallmark
